1. |
Paradise
03:29
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Take me into this paradise
I’ve changed
I lost a lot of light that lit inside me
Now there’s barely something able to
Wake me, wake me up, make me feel excited
Break this up, break this up, break this up
I am petrifying
I’m a stone cold soul
Dancing on my own
To feel the burn inside my bones
I feel like the rain
Dripping away, dripping away
I run from this pain
I can't escape - I can't
Why can't I find a place to hide
A hopeful dream of a future paradise
A future paradise
Tell me why, tell me why, tell me why
They don’t shut up
Yeah I try, yeah I try
So hard to get up
I'm a stone cold soul
Dancing on my own
To feel the burn inside my bones
I feel like the rain
Dripping away, dripping away
I run from this pain
I can't escape - I can't
Why can't I find a place to hide
A hopeful dream of a future paradise
A future paradise
A hopeful dream
My future’s near
Running at full speed
A hopeful dream
My future’s near
Take me into this paradise
Will I finally find my happiness
Recover from all that has passed
Tell me is it worth it to survive
Until I reach my future paradise
I feel like the rain
Dripping away, dripping away
I run from this pain
I can't escape - I can't
Why can't I find a place to hide
A hopeful dream of a future paradise
A future paradise
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2. |
Dead Inside
03:24
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I revisit an old phase of mine
This feels too familiar oh I can't
Oh I can't
Play on repeat again
I act just like a record that got stuck
Oh this phase sucked so much
It’s scary how quickly we
Can switch to who we used be
Delete me out of your memory
Erase all of what wasn't meant to be
Back in this wrestling ring
Fighting for something I can't get
Tell me what am I fighting for
I punch myself right in the throat
And scream what are you doing to us
This pain makes me realize
There’s no one who wins this game
Delete me out of your memory
Erase all of what wasn't meant to be
I've tried, I've tried so many times to think straight
I can't deny I wish we took another way
Delete me out of your memory
Your memory, your memory
Delete me out of your memory
Erase all of what wasn't meant to be
Delete me out of your memory
Erase all of what wasn't meant to be
Delete me out of your memory
Erase all of what wasn't meant to be
I've tried, I've tried so many times to think straight
I can't deny I wish we took another way
Delete me out of your memory
Your memory
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3. |
Flames
03:53
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I gotta run far
I gotta run far from here
I gotta carry on
My heart beats in a fast speed
And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks
My heart beats in a fast speed
And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks
So loudly so clearly
I'm 24 and I don’t seem to know shit about myself
So much fog in my head, working no end
Some days I wake up and I’d rather be dead
Sadly this is my reality, everyday’s a challenge
Though I try to show the best of me
My heart beats in a fast speed
And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks
I gotta carry on, I've suffered for too long
I have to run far, away from my past
Oh I gotta hold on to the faith that I have
Maybe someday, I'll be proud what I've done
I've been running through flames
Running, running through flames
My heart beats in a fast speed
And I can’t breathe 'cause my fear speaks
I clench my teeth, I stamp my feet
Beating myself up for feeling more than weak
Dissociative behavior
I'm a slave of my past and I hate it
My heart beats in a fast speed
And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks
I gotta carry on
I've suffered for too long
I have to run far, away from yesterday
I gotta hold on to the faith that I have
Maybe someday, I'll be proud what I've done
I've been running through flames
Burning up burning up, yo
The flesh down to the bones
But I'm still standing up
Yeah I'm still standing up
Yeah I'm still standing up
I've learned so much but these days have been so hard
I've made mistakes but they taught me how to grow
I've been so hard on myself for far too long
I'm still so young
So I gotta carry on
So I gotta carry on
Gotta hold on, to the faith that I have
Maybe someday, I'll be proud what I've done
I've been running through flames
So I gotta carry on, carry on, carry on
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4. |
Locked
03:09
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And I can't listen to all your meaningless aphorisms
I shut my mouth so I don't spit out what I think about
Yes, because we're all living in an illusionary realism
I'm so locked, I'm so locked
I am floating like a feather
I am just drifting away
This indifference is an ugly side of me
I am diving underwater
I am just flowing away
No, I won't sink down a place that drowns me
No, I won't swim through the waves of my own sea
I won't be choked by a storm of despair
I'm locked but I’m striving for more
And I can't listen to all your meaningless aphorisms
I shut my mouth so I don't spit out what I think about
Yes, because we're all living in an illusionary realism
I'm so locked, I'm so locked
And my blurred eyes don't seem to see anything good surrounding me
There is not a single voice that I can hear to prove me that it's better here
I am diving underwater
I am just flowing away
No, I won't sink down a place that drowns me
No, I won't swim through the waves of my own sea
I won't be choked by a storm of despair
I'm locked but I’m striving for more
Nothing seems to work anymore
I've grown a thicker skin
After all that I've been taking in
My crust is indestructible
I hope I don't turn to stone
Nothing seems to work anymore
I don't feel like flesh and bones
No, I won't sink down a place that drowns me
No, I won't swim through the waves of my own sea
I won't be choked by a storm of despair
I'm locked but I’m striving for more
And I can't listen to all your meaningless aphorisms
I shut my mouth so I don't spit out what I think about
Yes, because we're all living in an illusionary realism
I'm so locked, I'm so locked
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5. |
Heads Up
02:56
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I'm repeating myself
Over and over again
I can't listen to what I'm saying, so I cover my ears
All the same words are phrased in a different way
But the message remains the same, so I better stay
Silent till all of this changed
I'm waiting for a better day
I gotta keep my head up in this crappy situation
Oh I feel like giving up to get a real bad reputation
I really hate myself so much
'cause I'm more than just a little messed up
I gotta keep my head up in this crappy situation
Just look at me now
Such a freak in its own tragedy
But I don't want you to pity me
So let's rather stay
Silent till all of this changed
I'm forcing myself through these days
I gotta keep my head up in this crappy situation
Oh I feel like giving up to get a real bad reputation
I really hate myself so much
'cause I'm more than just a little messed up
I gotta keep my head up in this crappy situation
I feel stuck, oh I feel stuck
Just give me some more time to think
I'm losing all my patience
I feel so irrelevant
Look at me now
Ugly unintelligent
I gotta keep my head up in this crappy situation
Oh I feel like giving up to get a real bad reputation
I really hate myself so much
'cause I'm more than just a little messed up
I gotta keep my head up in this crappy situation
I gotta keep my head up
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6. |
Sleep Tight
04:12
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Butterflies, a blue sky
Everything is pretty but we still cry
Generation Z are we adults yet?
'cause I'm wishing for a bullet to shoot through my head
Help me out of here
These monsters will eat me up
Why can't I see clearly?
They are scraping my eyes out
But everything is nice here, it will be alright dear
Don't worry too much it's just a nightmare
Sleep tight to hide from my fears
But inside my entire world bleeds
I sleepwalk through this hell of earth
I'm awake in a nightmare
A tide of war and peace
Give me a break I'm begging you please
I drench, is this a dream or not?
Is this all just a nightmare?
I pinch my skin
Nails are sinking in
Is this reality or am I just a little dim?
Turn the lights on, blast a loud song
But I still feel numb, guess that something must be wrong
Help me out of here
Why can't I see clearly
They are scraping my eyes out
But everything is nice here, it will be alright dear
Don't worry too much it's just a nightmare
Sleep tight to hide from my fears
But inside my entire world bleeds
I sleepwalk through this hell of earth
I’m awake in a nightmare
A tide of war and peace
Give me a break I’m begging you please
I drench, is this a dream or not?
Is this all just a nightmare?
I see the stars, I see their lights
How much more do I have to try?
To feel a spark of a resting mind
Tell me how much do I have to try?
I see the stars, I see their lights
How much more do I have to try?
To feel the spark of a resting mind
Tell me how much do I have to try?
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7. |
Defeating Gravity
03:06
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I fooled myself, acted like a tool
I saw no end of what I could do
I didn't know I could break like this
Held myself up through way too much
I fought gravity for as long as I can think
Denied the fragility of fully broken wings
Always moved along, now I need to be held
My legs shake, they're screaming for help
My resilience is fading away
Why did I have so much to pay?
I fought gravity for as long as I can think
Denied the fragility of fully broken wings
It's time to finally be honest with myself
Let's make sure we all follow the next lines
You're strong, keep holding on to this
Is there nothing to hold on anymore?
I say, get a grip on yourself but it's too hard
I fought gravity for as long as I can think
Denied the fragility of fully broken wings
It's time to finally be honest with myself
Let's make sure we all follow the next lines
You're strong, keep holding on to this
Keep holding on to this
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8. |
Roses
03:43
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I'm blooming up I'm at my top
I was so close to lose it all
Smart enough I kept moving on
Even though my life was falling apart
Oh I fell so hard while I was on my own
But I won't ever
I won't miss you - Melancholia
I'm blooming up higher
Higher, higher, higher
Can you see through these petals
They took up many shadows
I won't miss you - Melancholia
A light shines through a blossom tree
Serotonin's setting free
I'm glad to be, a different me
And now I'm chasing my own happiness
I want my dreams, I won't take less
Without these thorns, that used to take all my hope
But I won't ever
I won't miss you - Melancholia
I'm blooming up higher
Higher, higher, higher
Can you see through these petals
They took up many shadows
I won't miss you - Melancholia
No I won't ever, ever, ever
be the same again
I was so ashamed, ashamed, ashamed of myself
Back then, back then, back then, back then
I'm blooming up
I'm blooming up
I'm at my top
I'm at my top
I was so close to lose it all
I won't miss you - Melancholia
I'm blooming up higher
Higher, higher, higher
Can you see through these petals
They took up many shadows
I won't miss you - Melancholia
I won't miss you Melancholia
You've been so hard on me
I won't miss you Melancholia
You've been so hard on me - my friend
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9. |
Wounds
03:23
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Waiting for you, waiting for you
Waiting for you to get on track
'cause it's been a while,
It's been a while since I felt like that
But I can feel your fear
'cause you don't want me to be near
So baby let's try to say goodbye
To our older tears
I know it's hard
I'll give you time
But I can't wait to call you mine
You give me chills, give me smiles
So I wanna try so hard
But these wounds they hurt I can't get over it
I'm also scared but it feels so right around you
You make it hard for us to trust in love
Make it hard for us to trust in love, yeah, love
I'm turning so cold, turning so cold
I've tried too many times
To earn your trust that you once lost
To another love
I'm too familiar with goodbyes
I couldn't wait to call you mine
You give me chills, give me smiles
So I wanna try so hard
But these wounds they hurt I can't get over it
I'm also scared but it feels so right around you
You make it hard for us to trust in love
It's so hard for us to trust in love
Is it clear to you yet that I have many big wounds left
It's so hard for us to trust in love
It's hard to heal almost surreal
That there could be a different me
I still feel, I still see
Everything that happened to me
Is it clear to you yet
That I have many big wounds left
It will take some time
But could you stay with me tonight?
You give me chills, give me smiles
So I wanna try so hard
But these wounds they hurt I can't get over it
I'm also scared but it feels so right around you
You make it hard for us to trust in love
To trust in love
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10. |
A World in Tears
03:45
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Wait - I cannot wait
Another day the same
I get out of shape in my bed
And everything seems dead today
Where should I go now
In this town of ghost sounds still so loud
And my head shouts: get me out of here
Put your hands on the ground
We all feel so sucked up
Pray to your god
'cause nothing else will stick up
To our hopes of a happy ever after
'cause we know what comes after laughter
A world in tears
We're alone with our fears
A world in tears
Are there chances to
Take a break, regenerate
I wish this was the case 'cause all I face,
Are the dark sides inside me, they choke me invade me
Put your hands on the ground
We all feel so sucked up
Pray to your god
'cause nothing else will stick up
To our hopes of a happy ever after
'cause we know what comes after laughter
A world in tears
We're alone with our fears
A world in tears
Are there chances to heal
A world in tears, a, a world in tears
A world in tears, a, a world in tears
A world in tears, a, a world in tears
A world in tears
And I swim in this ocean
Our tears caused pollution
And I pray for forgiveness
Took more than we've given
Took more than we've given
And I pray for forgiveness
A world in tears
We're alone with our fears
A world in tears
Are there chances to heal
A world in tears
We're alone with our fears
A world in tears
Are there chances to heal
A world in tears, a, a world in tears
A world in tears, a, a world in tears
A world in tears, a, a world in tears
A world in tears
And I pray for forgiveness
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11. |
Loco Loco
03:09
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A little loco loco
A little mad, mad
A little mad, mad thing
A little loco loco
A little mad, mad
A little mad, mad thing
Show me something sweet and nice
That I've never seen before
Gimme me hope cause I drove
A few miles to get closer to a storm
And let me say it's cold outside
But I couldn't care less more
'cause I wish for a wonder
To be less bored of life, scared of life
In these times I feel so
Crazy
A little too loud a little untamed just
Crazy
I'm shaking up I wanna be out it's
Crazy
How each day seems on reverse
It keeps on getting worse
I think I'm going crazy
A little loco loco
A little mad, mad
A little mad, mad thing
Can someone give me good advice for a depressed episode
All I've tried made it worse
Because I always overthink my thoughts
My mind is my distraction from reality
To keep me bored of life, scared of life
In these times I feel so
Crazy
A little too loud a little untamed just
Crazy
I'm shaking up I wanna be out it's
Crazy
How each day seems on reverse
It keeps on getting worse
I think I'm going crazy
A little loco loco
A little mad, mad
A little mad, mad thing
I wanna get a relief
Let's get underneath all this insanity
Chasing my for my dreams
I wanna get a relief can you pray for me?
Show me something sweet and nice that I've never seen before
In these times I feel so
Crazy
A little too loud a little untamed just
Crazy
I'm shaking up I wanna be out it's
Crazy
How each day seems on reverse
It keeps on getting worse
I think I'm going crazy
A little loco loco
A little mad, mad
A little mad, mad thing
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12. |
Fever
03:09
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An ice glace forms on my face
I feel it sting, am I unexistent is this real?
A gloomed place, a sad face I see
I'm knocked out by my misery
My reflection shows me that I'm useless
I almost failed to believe in myself but
I got a fever I'm so excited
I'm shining like a diamond
Soon I can say goodbye to this
I flay out of my own old skin
I got a fever I'm so heated up
Jumping up and down too much
All this mess seems to be turned around
It's my time to be reborn
It seems with no doubt
That I am different now
I see the world for what it is
So cold so strongly filled with all this bitterness
I got a fever I'm so excited
I'm shining like a diamond
Soon I can say goodbye to this
I flay out of my own old skin
I got a fever I'm so heated up
Jumping up and down too much
All this mess seems to be turned around
It's my time to be reborn
Fever, fever gets me up
Fever, fever feeling hot
Blood flows through my veins so fast
A time where I can be reborn
My reflection shows me that I'm useless
I almost failed to believe in myself
I got a fever I'm so excited
I'm shining like a diamond
Soon I can say goodbye to this
I flay out of my own old skin
I got a fever I'm so heated up
Jumping up and down too much
All this mess seems to be turned around
It's my time to be reborn
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